Lone Wolf - PR1

Rainier University

Blair Sandburg, age 16:

Blair was scared to death. Here he was, first day of school on campus and he was the youngest kid here. He knew he was going to be teased. He was prepared. But he wasn't prepared for how frightened he felt.

He settled in and began his life as a Rainier Student. He went to get his class schedule and picked up his books. He was indeed ready to go. No one would be more prepared than Blair Sandburg. He lived to learn.

Anthropology would be his major as time went on. He was very excited about that. With any luck, he would be able to go on a field expedition. All of his life, he had dreamed of this happening. Now he just had to wait.

His roommate, Chad, wasn't very nice, but Blair just ignored him as his life became comfortable to him. Every night, he would lie on his bed and read the book that his mother, Naomi, gave him. It was about Sentinels. He was going to find one someday. He wasn't going to give up.

About six months into the year, Blair was sitting in class and the teacher was arguing a point with him and finally Blair just gave in and let the teacher believe he was right. The teacher then told Blair he wanted to see him in his office at 3:00.

As it came close to 3:00, Blair walked down towards the Professor's office and was scared to death. Chad, his roommate, walked up and said, "Hey, Sandburg. Need some help?"

"With what?" Blair wondered aloud.

"Professor Miller likes little boys." Chad said coldly.

"What do you mean? I don't understand."

"Sandburg, have you ever had sex?" Chad watched Blair's face turn very red.

"No." Blair almost whispered.

"You go into his office, but leave the door open a little bit so I can hear. And if he does or says something I'll come in and help you." Chad stated.

"Why are you being so nice to me?" Blair asked. "You've never cared about my welfare before."

"Because I started young, too. I don't have many friends either and I was being a shit to you. I'm sorry. Now don't be late. Get to the meeting." Chad hurried him off and followed wearing a frown.

Blair walked into Professor Miller's office and left the door open just a hair, and Miller said, "Come closer, little boy."

"I'm not a little boy." Blair shouted.

"Take your clothing off right now or I'm telling the Dean that you did something terrible. Now get them off."

Blair just stood there shocked. He didn't know what to do. Chad wasn't coming in to help him. He should have known that Chad was only using him.

"I see that I need to help you, young man." Miller proceeded to start taking Blair's clothes off. The door opened and the Dean and Chad walked in. Blair was crying silently and standing there in his underwear. Chad hugged him and told him it would be all right. Then he helped him get dressed.

Dean Murphy said, "Mr. Sandburg, I'm truly sorry about this. You have our word that Professor Miller won't be here any longer and won't be doing this to anyone else. Are you all right? Would you like to see a doctor?"

Blair smiled sadly and said, "I'll be fine. Thank you. I have to go and study now."

"I will send the policeman up to get the report from you when he arrives." Dean Murphy added.

Chad walked with Blair up to his room and Chad just sat over on his side of the room until he drove Blair nuts.

"I don't like you staring at me." Blair shouted.

"Sorry." Chad got his work out and started to study himself. "Do you belong to any study groups?"

"No, I don't want to. I prefer studying by myself. Thanks anyhow." Blair went back to his book.

Chad realized that Blair Sandburg was alone, but maybe he wasn't lonely. He seemed to want to stay that way. The roommate got up and headed off to his study group.

There was a knock at the door and Blair opened it to a gorgeous cop. "Can I help you?"

"Yes, I'm Officer Ellison and I'm here to take your report on your Professor. Can I come in?"

Blair stood back and said, "Whatever."

Officer Ellison knew he was going to be a difficult one. "So, Mr. Sandburg, can you tell me what happened and where?"

Blair recited the entire episode calmly and then said, "Is that it?"

"Well, that's all we need but you might need someone to talk to." Ellison said.

"Not in this lifetime. I've got someone to talk to." Blair sat cross legged on his bed and looked about to cry.

"Here's my phone number. If you need anyone, call me." Ellison walked to the door, but hated leaving him. "You did really good, kid."

"I'm not a fucking kid. I'm in college. I'm a man." Blair shouted out. But Blair didn't really feel like a man at all.

"Have a good life." And the gorgeous cop walked away.

Just like everything beautiful in your life, it leaves you. Well, you could have talked to him, you moron.

As he meditated, the wolf came to him and lay by Blair and kept him company while he slowly calmed down. He took his time because he loved the wolf. He was his only friend. When he spent time with the wolf, he went places he only dreamed of going.

As time went on, Blair began to get used to things. He still had no friends other than the wolf, but he loved the teachers and the classes. Everything was interesting to him. He could never learn quickly enough.

The year flew by and Blair found himself looking towards another.

Blair Sandburg, age 17:

He didn't have a roommate this year. The bed was empty, just like the other half of his soul. The wolf kept showing him a Jaguar and Blair felt like he was supposed to be watching for someone, but no one ever came.

Blair was learning more about Sentinels this year, and it was the most fascinating thing he could dream of learning. The wisdom from the books was awesome, but the wisdom from his Professors was even more awesome.

Every night before he did his studies, he first did one chapter in the Sentinel book. He was determined to find himself his mate. And she would be a Sentinel. Hell, Blair wouldn't even mind it his mate was a male.

The year was going by quickly and Blair was glad of that. He couldn't wait until he was 18. Everyone still treated him like he was a baby. Not that he really cared, but he wanted to be a real man. Maybe if he was 18, someone would have sex with him. Blair really wanted to have sex.

Professor Chapel walked into his room after knocking and said, "I have your new roommate. His name is Jim Banks. You show him the ropes, dear boy."

Blair stood up and saw the beautiful cop from last year. But his name hadn't been Banks then. What was going on?

He held his hand out and said, "Nice to meet you."

"Same here." Jim moved into the room and started pacing.

After the professor left his new roommate asked, "Do you know where I could meet some girls my age?"

Blair was taking a drink and almost choked, "Sorry, you have the wrong roommate. I never leave my room. All I do is study." Blair opened up his books and began doing just that.

Jim left looking totally disgusted with Blair and went looking for women.

Once everything was done and put away Blair got ready for meditation. He saw the wolf and relaxed even more and then he saw the Jaguar and saw a bear after the Jaguar. And the Jaguar was wounded. The wolf was pulling Blair to show him where to go, but this was a dream state, and he didn't know what to do. He came out of meditation and decided he'd go and see if he could find Jim. Maybe something was wrong with him.

The wolf sometimes was there in Blair's waking state. Today was one of those days. He followed his spirit guide and soon the wolf stopped.

Blair looked into the room and could see Jim was being held down by a bunch of guys and Blair said, "The Dean is on his way. Better run."

They all ran and left Jim lying there. Blair helped him up and they walked back to their room. Blair could tell that Jim saw the wolf also. He kept looking at Blair, as if to say, "I'm insane." They followed the wolf back to the room and walked inside and closed the door.

Jim immediately began rubbing on Blair and kissing his ear. Blair imagined that they slipped him a Mickey. He had read about them. Jim started stripping and Blair got his first real look at a man naked. And he liked it a lot.

Jim walked over to Blair and began to take Blair's things off. Blair didn't fight him because he wanted to be fucked, really bad. When Blair was naked, they lay back on Jim's bed and began to make out. Blair didn't really think he could get any harder than he was right then. He was wrong! But then Jim took his lotion and started to loosen Blair's anus up. By the time Jim had three fingers in, Blair was about ready to pop. Blair wondered if he should mention anything to Jim about him being a virgin. Then Blair realized that it wouldn't matter, Jim was drugged and hornier than all get out.

When Jim slid inside of Blair, it was a total shock. It hurt like hell but it also felt wonderful. And Jim was so gentle. Blair expected a Jaguar and what he got was a house cat. Not that he was complaining. Jim was the tenderest person Blair ever could have asked for, for the first time.

As Jim pushed harder and harder into Blair's body, Blair knew he wasn't going to last long. Jim reached around and fisted Blair's cock and Blair came quickly and quietly. After all, they were in the dorm. As soon as Blair came, Jim gave about ten more thrusts and he came inside Blair without making any noise at all. They both fell to sleep with Jim residing in his anus. In fact, Blair wanted Jim to take up residence forever.

In the morning, Jim woke up with Blair Sandburg in his arms and his cock settled half in Sandburg's ass. Panic was his first clear emotion for the morning.

He slid out and got up and started to pace. He didn't have a clue as to what he should do first. Blair was a minor. Jim would have to be arrested. He looked over and saw Blair awake.

"Sandburg, I'm getting ready to call my boss right now. You won't have to say much. It'll be all right." Jim was still pacing.

"What are you talking about?" A sleepy and confused Blair asked.

"I raped you. I'm telling my boss what I did and you're a minor. So I'll go to prison. I'm so sorry." Jim stopped finally and just hung his head. "I'm losing it. Either way I would go to prison."

"Jim, you didn't rape me. You were drugged and I came on to you." Blair explained.

"I still don't think that would go well with my boss."

"Do you tell your boss everyone you sleep with?" Blair asked, knowing he was a smart ass.

"I'm married." Jim was again hanging his head. "I've never cheated on her before. I don't know what to do."

"Don't worry about it. You were drugged, I liked it. So go home and forget it." Blair got up and grabbed his clothes and walked out of his room.

Jim called Simon and told him that he had been drugged, but his roomie had saved his ass. He needed to know what he should do now. He didn't mention anything about the damn wolf that he kept seeing and was seeing right now.

When Jim got off the phone, he started to make the bed up and saw the blood. He immediately freaked out and made a dash for the showers.

He found Blair alone, thankfully and said, "I need to see if you're hurt."

"You didn't hurt me. It felt great."

"Sandburg, there was blood on the sheet. Let me check you." Jim was almost begging.

"Not in here. Wait till I get back to the room. You could do with a shower too." Blair went back to what he was doing and Jim did shower before leaving the room.

Once back in their room, Blair asked, "So what are you going to check?"

"I have excellent eyesight and I can see if there are any tears or any type of damage." Jim sat next to Blair on his bed.

Blair let him look and there was no damage, so Jim felt better after that.

"So are you leaving now?" Blair asked.

"No, my Lt. wants to know why they drugged me so, in theory, I might be close to the main person. We're looking for a person that sells this drug on campus.

"I can tell you who it is, if you want." Blair said in a hushed voice.

"You know who sells this shit?" Jim asked just as quietly.

"Yes, they think I'm unimportant, so they don't care what they say around me. I've become invisible to them. Which is fine, but sometimes I hate it because I hear horrible things. They do most of their business in the library and it ruins it for me." Blair tried to explain.

"Is there just one person or a bunch?"

"Bunch. Here let me write them all down for you and you go from there." Blair did write them down and then waited to see what Jim would say.

"I'm going to ask you to go with me to buy some. Could you do that? Blair, I'll have a gun on my ankle the whole time. You'll be safe. That way it'll be easier to arrest them. I've got to get some other young officers in here, too. Let me call them and we'll get some good arrests made by tonight. Because of you, young men and women won't be sexually attacked while using that drug." Jim smiled at Blair.

And Blair thought; no, now they'll just be sexually attacked. Sometimes Blair hated the looking at the world and seeing the ugliness.

Jim called and got the okay for ten young officers and they all met in Blair's room. Jim okay'd it with the dean, so that Blair could miss his classes that day. It was necessary. Blair was going to take one of the young cops at a time, each time to a different dealer. That way no one would be the wiser. So they were being arrested, but everything was going smooth, none of them had a clue.

When it was all said and done, they had 9 dealers in hand-cuffs and crying for their daddies and mammas. All of the cops left except for Jim, and he walked upstairs to get his things.

"You did a really good job, Chief. I was proud of you." Jim packed as he talked.

"Have a good life, Ellison. Say hello to your wife." Blair sounded quite bitter, even to himself.

"Sandburg, I can't give up my wife. I'm not into guys. I'm sorry. You'll get older and find someone perfect." Jim tried to touch his shoulder but Blair moved away.

"Get out. I don't want to see you again." Blair had tears running down his face and Jim was trying to figure out why he was that upset.

"Blair, what's wrong? Why are you crying?"

"I thought you were my Jaguar and I was your Wolf. I'm just an idiot. Now please, go." Blair walked out of his room and Jim had no idea what the hell that meant, but maybe someday he himself would grow up enough to understand.

In the next few months, Blair longed for Jim. He knew that Jim was the one for him. Too bad Jim didn't know the same thing.

He had no idea that Jim was dreaming of the wolf every single night and he was dreaming of Blair, also. Both men were idiots.

Blair Sandburg, age 18:

"Hey, Sandburg, what cha doing for your birthday tonight?" Tom asked.

"Nothing. I have a ton of studying to do. You should be studying, too."

"You're so boring sometimes." Tom laughed as he walked past Blair's room.

That night, Blair was studying and heard a soft knock at the door. He opened it and heard, "Surprise."

Well, he was surprised all right. It was Officer Ellison, Officer Rafe, Officer Brown and Lt. Banks. "Why are you guys here?"

"We're taking you out for your birthday." Jim answered him.

"Where?" Blair asked.

Rafe laughed and said, "You would think we were going to beat the shit out of him or something. We're going to take you to the restaurant of your choice and we already have a cake. Jim had it made for you."

"I really have a lot of studying to do. I'm sorry, guys. Thanks anyhow." Blair was trying to push them out the door.

"Chief, come on. Two hours. That's all we're asking." Jim was pleading.

"Fine, but if I fail my test tomorrow, I'm telling the professor why." Blair shouted and all of the cops started to laugh.

"How does it feel to be 18?" Rafe asked.

"Same as last year. I don't do too much."

"Well, maybe this year will be a better year for you." Lt Banks said.

"Actually, the last year, was one of the best years of my life." Blair looked at Jim as he said it.

Jim had the decency to blush.

Once they got to the Vegetarian Restaurant, they all sat down and looked over the menus. Jim noticed that Blair hadn't looked at him once since they arrived.

"Hey, Simon, will you order for us, I need to talk to Blair." Jim asked.

"Not hardly, Ellison. I don't know what you want." Simon tried not to laugh.

"Oh yeah. Well, I'd like the Caesar salad and a beer."

"I'll take the same." Blair smiled as he got up and started to follow Jim outside.

"Okay, so one Caesar salad and a coke, it is." Simon did laugh this time.

They got out to the parking lot and Jim said, "You won't look at me and I feel terrible. I'm so sorry about four months ago. I didn't know what to do. But I want us to be able to talk now and then."

"Well, Jim, that doesn't work for me because I want you to fuck me now and then. I know you can't. I know you won't. I don't want to look at you because it makes me sad to see what I can't ever have." Blair walked back in to the restaurant.

"Lt. Banks, can I go now?"

"What did he do in that short span of time?" Simon, looking every bit pissed off, stood up and walked to the door. Blair touched his elbow and whispered, "I have a crush on him and it'll just embarrass us both. Please?" Blair asked.

So Blair said goodbye to the others and Simon drove him to his dorm. "Thanks for thinking of me, Lt."

"It was Jim. He thinks the world of you. He talks about you all the time. I think he might return that crush if you pushed him." Simon looked over and saw a smile reach Blair's eyes.

Blair went back to his studies and didn't hear from Jim again. But that didn't mean the two men didn't have very active dreams every single night.

Blair's Professors thought he was worth his weight in gold, so he was chosen for an expedition to Ecuador in South America. Eli Stoddard counted himself lucky to have the young student.

His major would be Anthropology and his minor would be Zoology.

The next year went so fast, Blair couldn't believe it. He was in Ecuador for 18 months and learned things he had never thought he would learn. He learned to speak three different languages, Spanish, Quechua and Quichua. Blair found out that he had a flair for learning languages. So this was effortless for him. They all learned to build with their tools and they showed everyone the ancient ruins. Once all of the students saw the ruins, they were goners.

He started keeping studies of the animals first. Atoq, means Fox, and they were beautiful. Sirwarqenti, means hummingbird and they were many different colors. Blair started drawing them first thing. They were breath taking. Tuku, means a type of owl. Blair was so in love with this country. This area would make a person want to stay forever.

That night, he started to study up on his next subject. As he studied he realized that he would be drawing one of these perfect creatures the following day. He was studying about the spectacled bear, otherwise known as the Andean bear. In Quechua, they were called Ucumari. They lived for 25 years and were pretty good sized, so Blair sure as hell didn't want to piss one of them off. They were the last remaining representatives of the short-faced bears. Somehow this made Blair feel closer to them. He needed to study them and draw their pictures too.

He found out that little is known of the social behavior of spectacled bears in the wild. Blair thought maybe they were solitary except for mothers and their cubs. He could understand that totally. When he read that they use a variety of calls to communicate with one another vocally in captivity, he was thrilled. Blair smiled when he read about them being excellent climbers and would often construct platforms in trees for resting and feeding. Blair made a note on the side that said, "Don't climb a tree to get away from these wonderful creatures." Blair wondered about the next part. He had never really thought about it, but if someone was around, he would only come out at night too. It makes total sense that spectacled bears are thought to be nocturnal.

Blair continued reading about the spectacled bears occupying a variety of habitats, including grassland, brush, rain forests, although they are typically found in mountain forest. All the more reason to be sure that he goes to all of the 'save the rain' forest functions. He made a note to himself, "Self, make sure and get more involved when you're back in the states."

Now Blair was reading something that made him sit up and take notice. He loved when things were odd, different or just all around strange. He read that spectacled bears have only 13 pairs of ribs compared to 14 pairs in other bears, and are the last remaining representatives of the extinct short-faced bears. The largest specimen recorded is estimated to have weighed 1,000kg, but they were thought to average at about 600kg. They roamed the Americas about 2 million-10,000 years ago. Blair just sat there with his mouth open after he read this. This was going to be the best thing that ever happened in his life.

For the next three nights, four men from the tribe took him out at night to where they thought the bears would be. They dropped him off and told him they would pick him up in the morning. Blair was able to watch them quietly and take a lot of pictures with his new camera. He took notes also, so that he would have notes to go with the pictures. He could hardly wait to get back to his hut so he could draw these gorgeous animals.

He was getting into watching one male with interest and taking pictures when he heard a noise. Turning around he saw one of the bears. He wasn't happy. There was no place to run. Blair knew that he was going to be his breakfast when a black Jaguar came out of the brush snarling and growling. The bear backed up and walked the other way.

Now Blair figured he had another animal to eat him but he wasn't interested. He rubbed against Blair and lay at his feet. Blair sat back down and began to watch the bears with his private bodyguard, who he just knew was Jim. He smiled as he continued to take more notes and pictures. He rubbed Jaguar's head as they sat there. There is nothing like a big cat purr.

As morning came closer, Blair pushed the cat and said, "You have to leave. The tribesman are coming." Then Blair hugged him quickly.

When the natives came they acted like he wasn't even there. They asked him how his evening went and Blair told them about the bear and the Jaguar. They looked at him as if he was insane.

Blair continued to study their crops, their trees, their climate, their animals and their customs. Blair felt he would have enough information to write four Theses'.

Blair was in charge of dating things and cataloging them all. He became quite the professional photographer. He was doing a most excellent job and Eli Stoddard sent notes to the college from time to time, to let them know what a worthy student he was and what an excellent teacher he would be.

Then one day, Blair talked to a native and found out they had a Watchman. A Sentinel. Blair asked if he could talk to him and take notes.

Two days later, the Sentinel came to him and told him he could talk for a short time. Blair asked many questions and the Sentinel had answers for them all. This beautiful dark man knew how to turn down his senses when he had to. He could use more than one sense at a time and one of the most important things Blair found out, was The Sentinel needed his Guide to ground him. Without a guide, he would begin to zone. The Sentinel explained all about zones and Blair wrote quickly. It was all so friggin' fascinating that Blair couldn't believe his luck.

Eli asked Blair if he could stay longer and Blair told him, "What do you think, Eli?" Both men laughed and Blair hoped to learn even more about the Sentinel and the Guide.

Blair sent for the Sentinel and he came. "What do you wish, wolf?"

"You know I'm a wolf?"

"Yes, I know. And your Sentinel is a Jaguar."

"No, I'm not a guide and I have no Sentinel." Blair answered with his heart pounding.

The Sentinel could see the pain and longing in the young wolf's face. He would try and help the two get together.

"He is yours, Wolf. He is a Jaguar and you've bonded. I can see it. I can smell him in your blood. He's yours and you are his. Until you take him, he won't be able to focus his senses."

"What is your name?" Blair asked him.

"My name is Leopard and my guide's name is Lioness."

"May I meet your guide?"

"Yes, I will bring her tonight and you will ask her the questions that you must ask before you believe." Leopard said as he left.

Blair could hardly wait, but he sat in the tent and typed up the information he had gotten from the Sentinel. All of this was enough for his main Thesis. He worked and worked on it and felt a hand on his shoulder and looked into gorgeous brown eyes. Lioness was as beautiful as Leopard, but looked much kinder.

They sat down and began to talk. Blair took notes of everything she said. She told him how to control the Sentinel. She told him how to keep the Sentinel alive at all times. And then she told him how to love the Sentinel more than anyone else could. After about four hours, they both tired and Lioness left to join Leopard.

"I wish you well, Wolf. Find the Jaguar and make him yours. You are already his." She leaned in and kissed him and smiled as she left.

Blair finally told himself that he would look up Jim Ellison when he got home, but thankfully, that was a long time away.

In the next two years, Blair kept so busy and became good friends with Lioness and Leopard. Sometimes he would sleep in their hut with them, which they had never allowed anyone to do.

While he was there, they would teach him how to control his Sentinel when Jim came to his senses. They would all laugh at that joke. Blair found himself loving these two people so much, that he could hardly think sometimes.

Blair had never had friends but he thought they might be friends.

"Wolf, you are thinking too much again. Are you wondering if we are your friends or family?" Leopard asked.

Nodding shyly, Blair hoped they would just drop it.

"We are your friends. You are a best friend to my mate. So for that I'll be forever grateful. He doesn't get to be with many men other than hunting." Lioness said.

"Thank you. I love both of you." Blair again didn't look up as he spoke.

"Wolf, don't be afraid of your feelings. If you love someone and they are a man, then tell them." Leopard was ordering him again.

"Do you have any questions about the control of the senses?" Lioness asked.

"I have about 100 questions I need to ask. If you have the time, I have the questions." Blair smiled into her beautiful face.

"She is beautiful isn't she, wolf?" Leopard asked smiling.

"How do you know what I'm thinking?" Blair asked.

"I don't. It shows on your face. You have a wonderful face for expressions." Leopard answered.

"I want you to make a list of ten things for each day we meet. And we can try and answer those questions." Lioness suggested.

And the night wore on with Blair sitting with them, loving every moment he got to spend with the two new friends.

Blair's notes were growing and growing as both the Sentinel and Guide gave him more each time he was there.

Blair's fellow students loved working with him because of his rapport with the natives. Everyone seemed to be getting a lot of work done and writing their main papers.

Eli asked, "Blair, could you take some of the students out to see some of the animals that you saw? They've still not found any."

"Gladly, Eli. We can start tonight. We'll go and see the bears first."

"Do we need to have a gun?" a young woman asked.

"No, never. Trust me, we don't need a gun." And Blair went to rest before he took them.

Every day, he took a bunch of new students to see the crops, the trees, the animals and anything else they wanted to see. One thing Blair never showed them was his Sentinel and Guide. That was something too personal for him to share.

"It won't be long and you'll be back in the states, young man." Eli said with a sad smile.

"I'll miss you too, Eli. When will you be coming?"

"About six minutes after you. So not too long." Eli hugged Blair ahead of time to let him know how much he would be missed. Both of the men had a good laugh.

One night, Blair was awakened by Lioness and she asked him to follow her. He did, thinking something had happened to Leopard. Blair walked into the dark hut and asked, "What is wrong?"

"Nothing is wrong, Wolf. I want you. I want to make the Jaguar wake up. This will do it. He thinks you'll wait forever. I saw him in my dreams and he thinks you will just stand by alone for the rest of your life. Come to me, my Wolf, and let me show you how it can be with a Sentinel and Guide."

Blair walked over to him and started disrobing. Before long he was lying naked on the floor of the hut. Lioness starting rubbing him with some oil and then began to put the oil in his anus with her fingers. Blair looked over at Leopard and said, "Take me."

"I want you to see who is doing this. He will see also. He'll know that he's not in his place." Leaving him on his back, Leopard pulled Blair's legs up over his shoulders and began to enter Blair slowly. He began to thrust in and out making Blair moan with need.

"He sees us. He's very angry. He wants to kill me. He wants you, Wolf. He wants to have you. He wants to own you." Blair came screaming Jim into the dark night.

"Your Jim just heard that. He's upset now. He knows that it's not a dream. You must go to him soon." Leopard said.

"We're leaving in two weeks."

"Good. Find him and love him." Leopard then pounded into Blair's ass four more time and came with a roar. Then he shouted, "See, Jaguar? This could have been yours. You turned him down."

In Cascade, Jim indeed did see the entire thing. He couldn't believe the dream but it was real. He had to talk to Blair. He needed Blair. He wanted Blair. Then he would kill the man that fucked him.

For the next two weeks, Blair was so sad. He wanted to go home on one hand, but the other reminded him of the place he had first found friends. He was going to miss them so much.

Blair returned and found out Eli had found him an apartment. After all he had been gone for almost 4 years. His dorm room was no longer available. Eli said he wanted to see him, so he got cleaned up at his new place and went to Eli's office first thing.

"Hey Eli. What's going on?" Blair asked fondly.

"Here are your certificates that you missed out on while you were off doing my work. You've graduated BA and then moved up to MA and now you only have to work towards your PHD. You have all of the information to do that. How old are you now, Blair?"

"I'm 24, sir."

"It seems like yesterday that you came here." Eli smiled at his young student. "Someone named Detective Jim Ellison has been coming around asking for you. Do you know him?"

"Yes, he's a friend of mine." Blair was pleased to hear that he had been looking for him.

"Here is a note from him and you're supposed to call when you get in. Good to have you back, young man." Eli hugged him and Blair went to his apartment.

Blair opened the letter and it said,

Dear Blair,

I'm sorry for ignoring you for so long. I divorced my wife
three years ago, and I would like for us to start seeing
each other. Please call me at my home and let me know.
555-6701.

Love, Jim

Blair was shocked. Love, Jim? What brought that on? Blair dialed the number and heard, "Ellison."

"Hey, Jim, how are you?"

"When did you get back in town?" Jim sounded lonely.

"Today. Want to come by and talk?" Blair asked casually.

"What room are you in now? And are you alone?" Jim asked.

"I have my own apartment." Blair told him the address and then hung up the phone.

Blair made sure that there was enough beer in the refrigerator and also made some guacamole dip. He had it all set out in the living room when Jim arrived.

Blair had two beers in his hand as he opened the door to let him in. "Hey."

"Hey, yourself. You look wonderful. Tan, strong and happy." Jim meant every word.

"Come on in and have a beer and we'll talk." Blair led him to the sofa and Jim looked at the dip and smiled.

"I love this dip. Thank you." Jim started eating it right away.

They both drank their beer and ate chip and dip as they tried to find a way to bring the subject of sex up.

Finally Blair looked at Jim and said, "You look handsome. Just like when I left. Can I see you naked again?"

Jim leaned into Blair and began to kiss him. "Chief, can we go to your bedroom?"

"Great idea, man." Blair yanked Jim up and pulled him into his bedroom.

Once they were both naked, Jim pulled Blair down on the bed with him and they began to make-out again. "I missed this Chief. I missed you so much."

"Yeah? I missed you too. And I have some things to tell you."

Jim began kissing him more and Blair finally pulled away and said, "Jim, I need to bond with you."

"What?" Jim looked totally confused.

"The Sentinel in South America told me that he could smell you in my blood because you had bonded with me, but I hadn't bonded with you. I need to take you." Blair looked at Jim and waited for his answer.

"What the hell is a Sentinel and how could he smell me in your blood. That makes no sense, Chief."

"They're a Watchman for tribes and cities. They can see, hear, taste, smell and feel more than anyone else. So they have an advantage. Are you doing these things, Jim?"

"Yes. But you couldn't know. You were out of the country."

"Did you dream of a wolf at any time or a Native making love to me?" Blair again hoped Jim would just talk.

"Yes, I saw the man. I wanted to kill him and I don't fucking know why." Jim put his head in his hands and groaned.

"He was the Sentinel and he said he had to send you a message. Once you got it, you would awaken and let me bond with you. How do you feel about me taking you?"

Jim got off the bed and began to pace. "Chief, I don't want to do that. I like to fuck you, but I don't want it done to me. I'm sorry."

"Then leave. I'm your guide, if you don't want me, then go and find someone else." Blair was heartbroken.

Jim tried to pull him back into his arms, but Blair resisted.

"Get out, man. I've had to work my life around you since I was 16. Now it's time to worry about me. I'm going to find someone for me and make a life for myself." Blair put a robe on and went and opened the door.

"I'm sorry, Blair."

"Not as sorry as I am. I honestly believed that Sentinel when he said you would come for me. I'm so stupid and young sometimes." Blair slammed the door after Jim got through the opening.

Blair went to his bed and sobbed, not knowing that Leopard was connected to him for the time being. He hurt just as Wolf hurt. He would have to do something to Wolf's Jaguar.

Jim tossed and turned all night. Finally, he gave up and had a dream while he was awake. There was a native standing there naked. He looked really good naked. Jim hated him for some reason. He was heading towards Blair and called him Wolf. He kept telling Wolf he would let him love him. The Native got down on his hands and knees and allowed Blair to take him very hard. "See what you have missed out on, Jaguar. He's mine and I am his now. You lost him." Jim came off the bed and had tears running down his face. There was no way he was going to lose his Guide.

He hurriedly dressed and drove over to Blair's apartment. At his door, Jim was losing courage. Finally, he knocked and Blair opened it with red swollen eyes.

"What do you want, Jim?"

"I want you. I want us to be together. I want us to be happy. I want you to take me."

Blair looked up at him and asked, "Why the change?"

"Because that fucker in Ecuador was showing me how you were going to take him and be bonded with him." Jim sounded very angry.

"Jim, he's bonded with someone else. He can't bond with me. So if that's the only reason, that's not a good enough reason." Someone had to be the adult in this relationship.

"Bullshit, Blair. I love you. Isn't that a good enough reason? I want you to take me. I want you to need me. I want you to love me back." Jim then kissed him hard and held Blair like that for a long while.

"I do love you, Jim. But maybe we should go slow."

"Blair, I haven't had sex in a year. Have pity on me." Jim smiled at his love.

"I haven't had sex in almost four years, if you don't count the Sentinel." Blair smiled back at him.

"Holy shit! I need to make love to you right now. Please?" Jim pleaded.

Blair pulled him into his bed where Jim did make love to him and Blair honestly felt like he was making up for lost time in one night. Jim fucked Blair four times. And finally Jim talked Blair into fucking him.

Blair knew that Jim was nervous, so he took his sweet time and got the oil to loosen up his body and his anus. He rubbed him down and then moved to his crevice and slicked it up, moving up to his sweet pucker. Blair had never seen anything like this close up, so he wanted to take his time for himself, too. He slicked up one finger and moved it into the warm, wet, hole and began moving it as his hole accepted him. After awhile he began to move his finger in and out making Jim moan with desire. Blair felt it was time to move to two fingers. As he slid the second finger in to join the first, Jim slowed down just a little bit, sweat was beading off of his forehead, but he was still moaning. Before long, Jim was fucking himself on Blair's two fingers asking for more. Blair pulled them out and slid in three and Jim took to them much easier than two. Blair moved up to his prostate and kept rubbing it each time he went across it. Jim began to beg.

Blair had to admit, a begging Jim was a very sexy Jim. He was enjoying this immensely.

"Jim, on your back. I want you to see who's fucking you. I want to watch your face while I'm fucking you." Blair pulled his legs up and started putting them over his shoulders as Blair began to enter Jim for the first time. Jim tensed up, but Blair went slow and as soon as he loosened up somewhat, Blair would push in farther. Finally Jim said, "I'm okay, Chief. Give it to me. Fuck me, baby."

Blair did just that. He pounded into Jim as he chanted, "You belong to me now. You're mine. No one else will have you. I love you." And when Blair said the I love you part, Jim came without even being touched and Blair followed suit feeling like his life would never be the same again.

When he finally started slipping out of Jim, he went into the bathroom and got a washcloth and towel. He then cleaned Jim and himself off and they slept until the following day.

Jim woke up and looked at his watch and said, "Shit."

"What?"

"It's noon. I was supposed to be at work today." Jim smiled down at Blair. He pulled his cell phone out of his pants that were lying on the floor, and called Major Crime.

"Banks."

"Captain, it's Jim. I need to have some time off, sir."

"You having more trouble with your sight and hearing?" Simon was concerned.

"Yes, sir, and I've found someone that can help. So I'll be working with someone off and on for that." Jim hoped he didn't sound too happy.

"You sound good, Jim. I'm glad.

"Thanks, Simon. I'll let you know how it's going. How about two weeks off for now?" Jim asked.

Blair started to move over on top of him, kissing his nipples and his neck and Jim said, "I gotta go, sir. Talk to you later."

"Sandburg, right?"

"How do you know this stuff, sir?" Jim was blown away.

"I could see you were meant for each other from day one. Enjoy. We'll talk to you later." Simon hung up the phone with a large smile on his face.

When he turned to Blair, he said, "So are you going to be able to help me get these senses under control? And how do you know these things?"

"Well I've been studying on all of the Sentinel Studies for years, but when I met the Sentinel in Ecuador, I knew I would have much to learn. He taught me a great deal and I, in turn, will teach you." Blair smiled at his Sentinel.

Blair began to tell him all about his trip to Ecuador and all he came in contact with. His smile was so large; it looked as though it would split his face. Blair was truly happy.

"Blair, are you sure you want to be with me? I'm older. I'm not as smart and I'm losing my hair."

"Jim, you're an idiot, but you're my idiot. You're not dumb, you're not old and I don't care about hair. I love you more than you can imagine."

"Chief, you wanna explain to me about these fucking animals in our dreams? Jesus, are we ever going to have regular lives again?"

"No and who wants to?"

"What part of that was no?"

"We're never going to have regular lives again. As far as the animals, that part is easy." Blair would need to explain it to him as if he was an adult and hope it took.

"So I'm waiting." Jim had no patience, showing his true age.

"Well, your spirit animal is a Jaguar and mine is a Wolf. They come to us to help us understand things in our lives. Only you and I can see them in our dreams. But the Sentinel in Ecuador explained that we will see them from time to time in the here and now."

"And we believe every fucking thing he says?" Jim again, liked showing Blair how mature he was.

"Jim, I know you don't like Leopard, but stop being an ass." Blair teased him.

"So there is a chance that I'll be at work some day and a Jaguar will show up and scare people?" Jim asked.

"No. Well, yes. It could show up, but Leopard said that no one else could see them besides you and I. Get it?"

"Yeah, I think so. It's nuts." Jim sighed.

"You have to open up your mind, Jim. Let something go in there besides cop shit." Blair ranted.

"After all these years of college, that's what you come up with? Cop shit? I'm disappointed, Chief."

"Shove it, Jim."

"Now? Right here? What if someone was to happen over?" Jim was laughing now.

"Oh fuck happen over. They can get their own cocks to suck. Come here."

Jim was enjoying this friendship but how much of him did Blair want? Jim wasn't quite sure that he was ready for a commitment.

"All right, you're not even getting hard. What are you thinking about?" Blair shouted this time.

"I want to ask you some questions, but I need you to promise that you won't be pissed." Jim hoped Blair would agree.

"Jim, how can I agree to that? I can't. Chances are you're going to piss me off big time, so just get it over with." Blair sat up and covered up his cock.

"I need to know if we're just fooling around here or you expect me to sign over my paychecks every week."

"Jim, get your clothes and get out." Blair stormed into the bathroom and slammed the door.

"See, this is why I don't like asking you anything. You always tell me to get dressed and leave." Jim shouted back.

"Get out."

"Fine. I didn't want to know the fucking answer anyhow. I'm thinking of going to Ecuador anyhow." Jim tied his shoes and walked towards the door.

Blair came flying out of the bathroom and demanded, "Why?"

"I didn't like that Sentinel fucking you. You're mine." Jim reached for the doorknob.

"So I'm yours?" Blair asked.

"Of course you're mine. We're Sentinel and Guide. I thought you understood that. You're the one that's been explaining it to me." Jim looked confused.

"Jim, do you have any feelings for me at all? Or am I just an ass to fuck?"

"What a shitty thing to say, Chief. I have feelings for you."

"What are they?"

"What are what?" Jim asked going in another circle.

"You know what, Jim? I'm going to sic my wolf on your Jaguar tonight in our dreams and we won't have to worry about it anymore." Blair shoved Jim out the door and slammed it.

Out in the hall Blair heard, "What did I say? Was it something I did?"

Blair just rolled his eyes and wondered how one man could be so dumb.

The student had books to read, so he was glad that Jim left. He would have gotten nothing done in the long run. He'd been at it for about four hours and the phone rang.

"Sandburg."

"Chief, I love you. I just don't want to."

"Because I'm a guy, right?"

"No, nothing to do with you being a guy. I got hurt from my marriage big time and I'm gun shy now." Jim was speaking so quietly that Blair could hardly hear him.

"So where do you want to go, Jim?"

"I would like for you to come to my house for dinner. Just dinner and we'll make plans from there." Jim waited for Blair's reply.

"Got an address for me or do you think I have ESP?"

Jim rattled it off for him and then he asked, "Blair, have you had anyone else fuck you like I did?"

"No, no one has been as good as you."

"That's not what I mean."

"Fine, just Leopard in South America. And that was to help you and I become closer." Blair explained again. "And keep in mind we weren't even a couple then. Right?"

"Right. But we are now, right?" Jim seemed worried.

"Jim, why are you acting so worried? I'm yours and you're mine. It's as simple as that."

"Will you just keep reminding me of that?" Jim asked.

"It's my job. I'll be glad to."

"Thank you. I love you and can't wait to see you tonight." Jim whispered into the phone.

"Why are you whispering?" Blair asked.

"Because I don't want everyone in your hallway laughing at me."

"You're in the hallway?" Blair asked trying not to laugh.

"I couldn't leave."

"I'm yours, Jim."

"You're mine, Chief."

"I like hearing that. Blair said sweetly.

"Then life will be grand. No more Lone Wolf crap, right?" Jim asked.

"Never again."

They both knew they would be together, forever. Fate is like that.

The end.

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Author's Acknowledgements: Thank you to Mary.